i didnāt think my first solo trip would happen like thisĀ ā a shotgun decision at midnight, but then again, that has always been my style: spontaneous, a short burst of passion driving me intoĀ action before my overthinking brain has the opportunity to catch up.Ā
i was sitting at my computer nearing midnight on a Thursday, contemplating my lifeĀ and how stale itād become, when i noticed iād navigated to hostels on Booking.com.
in Melaka, a seaside tourist town; 200km away from Kuala Lumpur, where I lived.
Shawn came home from his dinner, and stood at the doorway. together, we stared at the computer, cursor blinking.
āi think you can do it,ā he said, his hand warm on my shoulder. a benediction.
i nodded woodenly, my body moving on its own, filling in my details and checking out as my mind whirled through the possibilities: what if the car breaks down? what if i get too tired? what if i canāt find anyĀ food thatās compliant? what if, what if, what ifā¦Ā
... the confirmation page stared up at me. 1 night, 1 room, the text read. Friday 13 MayĀ ā Saturday 14 May 2022. i stifled a scream. it was happening. i was doing it, doing it, doing it. now i just needed toĀ figure out how to live up to it.
wow! I canāt believe itās day 50 of the 100-day challenge ā we are officially halfway through. this is probably the longest iāve ever stuck with something. my participation hasnāt been perfect, of course⦠but itās been consistent, and iām slowly learning that thatās the only thing that matters :)
love,
Gwen
P.S. iāve been working on an important (and deeply vulnerable) piece, which will be live in a few daysā time. stay tuned~!!