The Slog of Starting Over

day #18/100: a short poem on my creative process 🌸

I’ll never say it out loud
but the idea of a fresh 
start
is terrifying

my ego screams

IT (YOU) WILL NEVER AMOUNT TO ANYTHING

my traitorous heart 
looks at the measly string
of its digital counterparts
and palpitates

I tell myself it’s fine,
it’s to be expected.
better to be at the bottom
of the ladder you actually
wanna climb

but no one said that it would 
be this much of a slog —

hacking through the brambles 
of my mind to get to the paltry 
words underneath.

but maybe that’s just part of the 
process — getting into the 
groove, flexing atrophied 
muscles,

committing to it,
over and over again,
until it becomes less like
a slog and more like

second nature.

and one day, we might look back
and realize it was better to 

start scared than to not

start at all. 

🤍

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I wrote this today while on my morning walk. Since starting the 100-day project, I’ve been thinking about restarting our social media efforts for my business, as well. It’s nerve-wracking, yet it also feels right.

If this resonates, do comment below. I’d love to hear from you!